alaylith

Title: Redemption
Theme: Watson's Woes July Writing Prompts 2015
Prompt: JWP #26 The One You Were Expecting: Everyone expects certain kinds of prompts in JWP. Today's prompt is exactly that: the one you personally had expected to see by now, but haven't. Whether that's a 221B challenge, a woeful injury, or a cracktastic combination - well, it's whatever you expected from JWP!
Choosen Prompt: Use at least three of these five words in your prompt: Kinship, Tears, Foundation, Bottle, Punishment
Author: Alaylith
Rating: General Audiences
Universe: ACD
Warning: drug use, depression, suicidal thoughts
Characters: Watson
WordCount: 305
Summary: The drug makes him so real.

A/N: If I remember correctly for every JWP we always had at least one prompt where we had to use the given words, so that's a kind of prompt I always expect at JWP. :)

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He puts the bottle down, after he filled the syringe and slowly pushes the cocaine into his blood.
He relaxes back in his chair with a sigh and closes his eyes.

In his mind he can see the disappointment on his friend's face, the man closest to his heart.
His friendship is worth more than any actual kinship he has and it has been the foundation for a relationship he never thought possible.
He can see him so clearly, see his eyes and smell his tobacco. He can even feel the other's hand on his arm and his voice is as clear as water.
It is as if the man is truely there.

Watson snaps his eyes open, but no one's there.
He is alone.

A silent whimper escapes his lips and he leans forward to bury his face in his hands, as tears trail down his cheeks.
Holmes is dead, buried beneath the Reichenbach Falls and he will never come back.
The drug is the only way for Watson to feel Holmes as if he were still alive, but it always pains him so much more afterwards.
A punishment he deserves, as Watson will forever feel guilty about Holmes' death.

After several more moments, when the tears are almost dried up, Watson sits back in his chair and looks at the bottle.
For a moment he considers throwing it into the fire, but he never does and instead takes it up to prepare the next dose.

There are two ways for Watson to be with Holmes again and for the moment he is only ready to use the drug.
But he knows that it won't be long until he is going to take the second way.

After so many months of misery and horrible soul-wrenching pain, Death can only be his redemption.

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